This is an entry about advice.
I've been thinking about this for a very long time close to 7 years and I've been fighting it because I didn't think it was a good or a healthy way to look at life but I realise that it's how life is and we must know it to prevent reproducing it (the negativity).
I've had a lot of pitfalls and triumphs but to me, the most important thing is thinking about my role in that. I've realised that it's all because of me. I've made decisions that have made other decisions (mine or not) a triumph or a disaster. This is some advice for me not to forget and live by. If you have anything to say feel free in the comment section below!
-You either did it or not. There is no "I tried."
This speaks for itself really. As I've said I've had a lot of pitfalls and triumphs and after taking time out to look back on all that activity, I realised that ups or downs, blame is nobody's but my own for not doing my best. If I failed I didn't do enough. Though that isn't a bad thing, it just means next time I have to try harder. If my grades are not perfect, I didn't study enough. If a relationship falls apart, I didn't put enough effort into keeping it together. If someone has a complaint about me, I didn't do enough to make sure they didn't.
From this I concluded it was an all or nothing type situation in life, you either did it or you didn't. There is a grey people speak of but people create the grey to make up for the fact they didn't and it just reproduces the negativity. I understand that in the fashion career the idea of beauty is taken very seriously and this guy said "those who say 'beauty is within' are the ugly trying to console themselves." has some truth and applies to this in a sense.
-There are a few places to go for advice and it isn't a human.
They say the bible is good and the tarot deck is bad. They say it's about belief. If you believe it will happen, but they also say that about the tarot deck. When I began reading the bible I was told to believe the words it said, and when I began reading about the tarot deck I told to take it lightly as only a advice and a bit of fun. I realised as time progressed that the bible was feeding me the advice that the tarot deck was feeding me except it was a more stable source where if the problem arose it was always there with the right sort of advice. I learnt how to read it and I say I am not religious but I've grown a love for this 'lord'. I love the idea that this is advice and it has become fun for me to read. I decided to refer back to the bible for advice more often because even though tarot decks are fun I feel my energy drain as I do it. Literally I feel sleepy and I'm not making that up. It could be because of my syndrome and medication and such. I'm not sure but I still enjoy doing tarot just not often.
So after all this I have decided to use the bible and other means such as the tarot deck for advice and not share personal stories or events with others. This may mean I am shutting people off but I've realised sharing the negativity in my life reproduces it in others. If I want the evil within the world to stop I must do my part in stopping it. I feel so much happier knowing this and committing to it. Let's see how I do.
I feel so much happier now. It's helped me overcome a lot.
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