A lot of time hass passed by since my last entrace.
There's a lot I could say but I don't have enough time, things were sometimes hard and sometimes just perfect, but no matter how many bad things were there, we stand.
I was ridiculously happy and in love...still...well...just in love.
And again all my little world broke down, and this time I don't have any idea of how to act or react. How I have to answe? if I get mad, it will be bad, but I don't want to get sad, and it will have no sense because my feelings don't touch him anymore; I don't know what to do.
It's hard to sleep at night, no matter what I try, I always end up sleeping late. The shadows of the windows are disturbing, I have to sleep with the light on because the silence and darkness scares me.
Beside of everything, I still have faith; if this is my punishement I hope it doesn't last too long because is hurting me so bad; just please, don't take him away from me.
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"If you place a parchment with your wish written on it into a small bottle,
and let it drift into the sea, then one day your wish will come to fruition."
The glass bottle, with a message detailing my wish, is being carried away.
It gradually and silently disappears beyond the horizon.
You always did everything for me, no matter what,
but I was always selfish and only causing you trouble.
You are no longer by my side to grant my wishes,
so I will have to let the sea grant my wish for me.
My little wish is being carried away, with my tears and some regret.
Realizing one's sin, unfortunately, always occurs after it is too late.
God, please; if we were to be reborn it be nice if we fell in love again....
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