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My life is so complicated... this past year has been so stressful, I got my first (real) boyfriend and we were perfect together then one day he broke up with me because he was moving away and didn't want a long distance relationship and he told me to move on. it took sometime but i did and after we broke up he didn't talk to me for a month i was so sad because i love just talking with him. after we broke up i started to talk to a guy i meet on another gaming website he was really nice and he kept asking me out (he lives on the other side of the world and is madly in love with me) i said yes just so he would stop asking me so we talked for about two more weeks then he just stopped messaging me back (i later found out he got busy at work) so i figured we broke up and left it at that. so then the school year started and i started talking to a guy who was friends with all my friends he was really nice (massive perv) i started to think he likes me because he would call me cute and other things along those lines so i thought why not. i went to a football game with him and meet up with some friends that were there only to find out he lead my one friends sister on and she got badly hurt because of him but i had already gotten some feeling for him... then out of the blue my ex unadded me on facebook then started talking to me again. (he acted like a teenage girl) once we started talking again i found out he ended up staying in the area to go to college and he only broke up with me because his mom wanted him to focus on his school work (he always lie to me and i don't understand why) he still acts like we are dating sometimes by accident. i told him about the guy from school and how he might like me (i tell him everything) not long after that he told me he still has feelings for me and wanted to get back together, i got so happy but then i thought about the other guy, i don't want to hurt him and i was suppose to hangout with him so i told my ex that i would just friend-zone the other guy (nicely) the day came i was to hangout with him only to have im cancel because he got called into work that same day my ex texted me telling me i should give the other guy a chance.. and how he doesn't want a relationship right now.. i was so sad i started cry after awhile i stopped and thought it was for the best and then told him not to get my hopes up if hes not going to catch me when i fall. a couple more days past and i hangout with the other guy and it was late at night i was with him and his two friends we walked around and through the woods he held my hand (more like grabbed) so i wouldn't fall and he hugged me a lot. i liked it... when i get home that night my ex texted me and asked me about my day so i told him i hung out with the guy he asked what we did so yet again i told him we walked and talked and that we held hands and then he got so jealous and pissed at me for holding his hand. i then said if you didn't want me to then you should have told me to move on he started to get an mean and told me to go talk to my "new guy" i the said no because you'll be mad at me so whats the point even trying we stopped talking at that point. the next day he wanted me to go see him but i already made plans with the other guy (i didn't tell him that) a couple weeks went by since this and i still talk to my ex not as much tho and the other guy doesn't talk to me that much anymore i don't like it.. i think i scared him away... im not going to text him for awhile and then try again maybe sometime next week... i hope he starts talking to me again...
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