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Bleached Confession, Whited-Out
Entry made for fun!! ^ u ^ (Don't read if you've not seen past Bleach episode 212)
Well, actually, it's to point out similarities then be done, lol c':
From a previous entry, "I may be silent. I may be suddenly serious. I may think and plan out things. I may feel perceptive, intelligent, strategic, and analytical to the delicious amount known as cleverness, but I never make anything bad happen, of course not. When I think about it .... hm, those emotions/personality traits mixed altogether at one perfectly and equally combined moment could FEEL like borderline slyness/"evil", because of the mix, but since I'm kind hearted, nothing happens, lol. I'm normally very cheerful so, please, what are you thinking about right now? > u> Heh c:>
-smiles- It's true that no one should ever underestimate a Virgo and it's true that no one ever knows a Virgo because one, they are either incredibly off or they know a Virgo, and two, when they think they know a Virgo, they might have to think about it again, but this feeling of unstable trust doesn't mean there are any horrible consequences."
What? Do you think I have some sort of hidden motive?
It’s true I naturally don’t tell people everything I know/explain myself.
But that doesn’t mean people are meant to be cautious.
Haha, of course not. Who am I, a villain?
-blinks, pointing to herself- With this face?
-smiles- Really, now? -slightly raising her eyebrow-
My, my ~ What an interesting point of view you have.
(Does that sound like anyone to you?)
… -laughs- No, I’m kidding. I was kidding for ever since I said “Haha, of course not. Who am I, a villain?”
But you could see why I love Kisuke Urahara. Similarities forever rule when it comes to relationships and people. Similarities are so wonderful.
I don’t simply like Kisuke. I love him. -blushes darkly after realizing- I mean, not like that!, but it .. is like that .... and ...... You know, sou-sounding as less embarrassingly passionate as I can while still meaning the somewhat important words so it doesn't mean nothing!///////// For .. For once, umm, a fictional character crush of mine is unlike its usual state. My interest in Kisuke is serious, in the kind of way where if he likes someone, I'll be perfectly fine; it doesn't matter. C: He's a fictional character anyway; he can't really be with a physical person c: I'm just never going to stop liking him. Many similarities, high compatibility <3 Capricorns <3 I love that Kisuke exists.
When I first watched Bleach, years ago, I only say until episode twenty-something, and even after that I guess whenever it was on TV, I think?, or I searched it online, but it was too long even then and I didn’t finish.
I certainly didn’t finish the series enough to know the shop owner.
And consider the fact that I was also only twelve to thirteen years old. I never paid Urahara a single attention. I thought he was this cool and kind man who mysteriously helps Ichigo, and that’s great, but that was it. Kisuke rarely popped up. When I first saw Bleach, I liked Uryū Ishida, the suave, calm, intelligent, and analytical Quincy.
Of course. -brightly smiles-
He’s analytical, like me. He’s chivalrous too Cx. When I rewatched Bleach a few years ago, properly this time after being introduced to Bleach, I loved it when Uryū blushed in the Bount Arc. I also loved it when he seemed to like Orihime Cx (Shy boys~ ) But I never finished the Bount Arc, due to school. I went to 70 or something, but definitely not 90. It was a small crush on the Quincy. Harmless, really. It’s nice to like a guy that you like (not just any random person lol;;; ). Aaanyhow.
When I watched it this year, this time to finish the series, I saw Uryū actually fell in love with the Bount woman (second time I never remembered her name when I said this sentence lol). The last time I watched Bleach, which was the first time I properly watched but didn't finish, I thought, his feelings, it wasn’t serious, but looking at how depressed he was, he really did like her, a lot. I didn't notice how heavy his mood was before. Aw =(. It was a little sad to get rejected in a way, lol, but I was happy he fell in love because Bleach characters lives in this “I don’t have a heart” realm because romance and couples doesn’t exist. How nice for them (how easy for them).
Remind me never to watch shounens like that. Rurouni Kenshin was perfect, hmph > 3>
I love the action and I know that if I watched those series when young, the romance in One Piece, Bleach, and Fairy Tail would not have even bothered me. Once older, it’s a nonsense world they live in, lol.
After the Bount Arc, I already gave up on Uryū.
-- Oh and once, a few years ago, a Bleach movie was on TV! I didn’t know what it was called because the TV didn’t have that option at the place I was at, but when I returned home to resume watching it, I saw Tōshirō Hitsugaya whip out his gigantic crystal-ice dragon attack – the action, amazement, skill, and epicness was COOL. (Well, this is a movie, so it’s reasonable to be better, lol)
It was near the ending of “Memories of Nobody” cause I never finished it; I had to go to bed that night, boo.
But since then, I liked Tōshirō (only because he was cool xD) until I thought of rewatching Bleach this year. Of course, I didn’t know Tōshirō really is if I focus too much on the same traits I overlooked and forgot about. He may be cool, but he’s stubborn, bossy and strict; I’d be more annoyed by him than like him. I searched up his horoscope sign and it was right, lol. He may be interesting and appealing, but after that, it won’t work. It’s nice to be around him though; it’s always nice whenever he’s in an episode <3. I like Tōshirō for the feeling of liking someone that you like because I know we are in no way compatible. It’s a faint crush and I won’t necessarily stop liking him because it’s fine not to. Tōshirō’s cool ; 3;’ That’s always in the very back of my head; acknowledged but not thought of.
Anyways, during the beginning of Bleach, Tōshirō wasn’t there. I didn’t think of him either, just like I explained earlier about my feelings being in the back of my mind when he shows up. It was just rewatching from beginning.
And for some reason, I liked the Urahara Shop owner. He was so silly it didn’t even matter if it meant anything. I’m incredibly silly if I want to be, like if I want to cheer someone up, but it’s amusing since it’s not serious. Happiness can be infectious, so C:.
There's a difference between silly, and being idiotic. No, not dense, but less intelligent.
I don’t mean the kind of thing where you don’t know if a person is capable of intelligent thought when all you have seen the person do or say is small talk, the suffocating casual atmosphere where you begin to think the person’s incapable of anything serious or important.
Kisuke’s silliness was pure joyfulness, happiness in life. He was enjoying himself and he let people know by talking like that. To me, he was never ‘hilarious’ as other fans think, but he was amusing; he was definitely a pleasure to know. I couldn’t help but read his entire wiki and I fell in love with him even more when I read about his fighting.
If I were trained in fighting, comfortable in fighting and not afraid anymore like in the beginning of the life style, I would fight the smart way.
Like I said, I leave people out. Sometimes, by accident when I think I've told the person, but it was my head and I only say the last part LOL;;. Other times, it's just nothing because I don't feel a need to explain until it's necessary. Anyway, Kisuke does the same thing. He knows more than he lets on. He’s an amazing analyst, strategist, and scientist.
Because of our similarities, of course I love him C: as much as a person can love a fictional character. Of course < <;;;. (-coughsdestroysallevidenceofthisentry-)
When I don’t emote, I sound serious and calm; when I do emote, I sound really lively and nothing is wrong in the world. Kisuke can be serious when the situation calls for it, but usually he’s goofy and smiling. Many people would not see my serious side unless there is a problem or unless I’m explaining something. Other than that, I don’t need to be serious around my friends. Years ago, my mom even thought I wasn’t a serious person! I answered, “I am! You’re wrong!” She didn’t really believe me. And right now, I should ask again lol since she didn’t really give me a complete ‘yes or no’ answer. Because I was always so carefree, silly, and “fearless” when with my family, from not having to watch who I am because they already know who I am and love me, my mom didn’t think I was a serious person, when, in fact, I am. My default is serious as I take things seriously, but I take things lightly too; I’m a serious person, but I choose to always be happy and smile because what is life if you don’t have any fun?
So I really am always cheerful unless something bad happens and unless the situation changes. I don’t emote for nothing C: Happy happy emotes~~ La di da di dah~ Heehee C:
It might sound like a lie, but I really don’t sound as serious like this all the time, even though I'm a serious person and 'serious' would unexpectedly be my default - it may look like I'm a serious person from all these entries one has been reading -- way too much seriousness it's been torturing me lol -- but that’s because I’ve been explaining non-stop for a long time now. Otherwise, I wouldn't need to be serious.
I usually emote; I always have. If I don’t emote, something’s wrong, lol; that, or I’m being serious about a problem or a discussion, but I’ll eventually emote. When I don’t for a long time, it feels weird. Being too serious for too long. Not so pleasing to the ear, the mind, or the face!
I only really talk without emotes NOW because I’m more mature. I don’t need the frivolous emotes, you know? But I still need them; I do use them; I’m still the person I was a year ago, after all. Emote here, beam there, always by your side.
Like with comments to Cakey (Asian Pancakes). ((But first, my old nickname for her sounds a little awkward for me but I’m ignoring it because I like my nickname even if it doesn’t fit my emotions.))
One, I can’t really put in emotes. It wouldn’t fit. It would be weird. I adapt myself to my surroundings so that there are as less differences as possible. If a friend of mine hardly uses emotes and sounds mature, after the greeting, I have changed to only text. (ie: Tori)
I can’t help it. I’d like to use emotes, but they aren’t appropriate. I’d like to use emotes, but that wouldn’t really be honest to reuse myself if I feel more mature now. I’d like to use emotes, but one could see the stark difference between the two peoples’ tones. And so, I remove the use of emotes. That would be the only time I purposely don’t sound so bubbly. When I talk to people, I sound bubbly. I still do, unless I’m feeling reserved/reserved and mature.
And two, the things we talk about, well, I ... don't need to sound anything else other than calm and mature, so I don't c:
My mobile’s background has been Kisuke for weeks and months ~ My phone had 349 images of Kisuke that I finally removed and put onto my computer to upload on Photobucket then delete the folder of files on my desktop! ; A ; I found the images from a Tumblr and kept saving the ones I liked xD;;;. Sadly, it was on my phone and kept storing space; I felt bad for storing it so I had to empty my phone or it would burst and die. Not really, though. Taken space on anything, ie: USB memory stick, makes me cringe and have this bad feeling since the memory space is so used up.
My lock screen
My home screen
Kisuke Photobucket album I commented on some but not all images.
I don't physically turn red, but my mind gets a suffocating cloud of blush, depending on how embarrassed/shy I am, that I can't function. So ~ At first, with the background, when I would look at my phone, to check, I would blush sweatdrop It was a little annoying;;;;. -coughs- But, um, haha, I'm, well-- Heh ... I'm okay. -clears her throat, looking away- It's cool when someone has that effect on you, real life person or not. -glances and smiles- Isn't it?
Although I don't physically blush, once, I was immediately telling one of my best friends to NOT say "his" name xD;. (All she asked was "how are you and ___" while we walked to class) I was trying to explain, couldn't, tried to use anime, Kiyori very flustered, and she suddenly announced, informed me in surprise, "[You're turning] red!"
She hadn't expected it but saw it and told me; I didn't even know and jeez ~
> ///o///< NO, I don't need that!! (LOL;;; ) My eyes widen and I thought I made it worse from only being aware. She panicked; I panicked; she panicked because I first panicked; she asked me if I wanted to walk to the washroom to calm down and she could come with me.
Pfhht, hahaha!
Jeez -smiles, shaking her head- I love that kind of thing while watching a show, be it animated or not, but daaang, when it happens to you, so not fun x'''DD;;;. I eventually got over it, but it's been two years and his name hardly came up so I would go back to having to get used to it again, I guess? Well, no, I can hear it .. ish, because I have HAD to. But saying it, not so easy c: o //o//e I'll work on it though like I used to, but it'll be later in life 3nodding Not necessary to right now. The progress is on pause~
Pfht -smiles and rolls her eyes- High school romance fanfics are always the same things; it's a little funny once you've already graduated and you see all the 15-17 year old teenage drama. 17-25, fine, but still teenage and it's a little odd how the year range (15-25) are so full of stuff c: Adults and kids have nothing as much as them xD;
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