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I guess you could say I'm not proud of myself either, but how can I try to do something when my only support is pushing me back down? See, Alice, this whole thing started on a morning drive in Hilo.

Three whole hours were spent sitting in a drivers ed car, one of which was when I was driving the car myself. Then a good six hours were spent shopping in Hilo, it was still with me. By the time I got home I had carried the plastic printed bags into my house and onto the table. Taking my hair color and top coat into my room, I sat on the floor next to my dresser and poured out the contents of my bag onto the floor. My phone, wallet, iPod, money for the fundraiser, pens, earphones, and camera onto the floor. I put some stuff away but left the rest on the floor. Then, after a bath and a KFC fattening dinner, I went to bed and fell asleep..

I awoke the next day. Miserable Monday. and slowly climbed off the top bunk of my bed. My things were still scattered on the ground as I went to go take my dog out to do her business. I ate breakfast, brushed both teeth and hair, and hurried on into my room. I picked the zebra shirt out of the plastic bag and pants our of my closet. There was only a good 5 minutes left and I grabbed my black small backpack and flew books, chargers, clothes and electronics into it. That was the last I had ever seen it, my camera, that is. And I didn't know it had disappeared until after school was finished and I had gone to look for my camera. My heartbeat raced as I tried to find it all over my house. It was nowhere to be found and I could not think of where it could have gone. I searched the same places over and over again until I completely thrashed it. There was no hope for me now. Failure.

Now it's Tuesday. I'm screwed. ******** over. My parents seem to have their mindset on that I don't care that I lost my camera but guess what I DO! Since I can't talk to you face to face with how much I do care and how much I hate being put down, I might as well just write it all down. I don't know where my camera is but if somebody stole it..... Imma have to pound out their face.