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I have weird life, the result of the things i've done and expierence led me to where i am now. My life is becoming alot better then it has been. I'm proud of it but again I'm not.
What you may read is feelings and things i'm going through.

People: I have alot of friends or more then i did before. How ever i do feel that it isn't enough for me. Though for very long time i really didn't have many friends so i guess this would of been expected. I am becoming a bit known to certain parts of the school. It's more of a "I've seen that guy before" Lately i have been distanting myself from my friends. Stoped going to clubs with them or joining live chats. I just want to go home and play some xbox instead. I'm trying to fight my video game addiction. It's alot harder when you buy skyrim.. That game kind of started this whole distant thing. xD 130 hours so far.

Speaking of distanting i do feel sometimes that people are just going against meor just plainly ignoring me. My supose to be Closest Friend wouldn't reply to any of my txts or bother picking up the phone when i call. He has been in accident recently nothing serious though he doesn't F___in tell me but TELLS EVERYONE EXCEPT ME.... [ Rage ] same goes for some other people however. It seems not everything i send goes through. I sent a facebook msg to certain female day before and she got it the next day on her blackberry facebook app. while we were in class... xD Who know's... Does computer msg sent to the phone come right away? Someone should pm that.


So that Use to be very special person?.. Well We're avoiding each other because the history we had is really Tormenting us and when we see each other it comes back.. So. I'm ok with it that i'm avoiding her more because i care how she feels i still do the occasionly greet and smile i actually mean it. Being Happy wouldn't be the best way to describe it, I'm comfortable now xD Not a best choice word to describe it ai?

The only stress i deal with is my future I'm at that year where i have to decide what i want to do. Yet i haven't even looked at colleges, careers, don't even have job now. O_o I was untill They bumped the age requirment to another YEAR.. So i should find something else now. Haven't started yet slacking alot more, grades are goin from 95s to 70s. To much video games tough i have taken apart my xbox. Just to put it back together and became bored in 30mins stoped playing.... Then spent the rest of the day on computer Doing Nothing of any immportance. Oh it's midterm week and i haven't even studied. Tomorrow is the last exam for me i should be studying NOW and not make this entry..

Parents: My parents are terrible... Who pressures their child about being fat and that they are gaining weight. That makes it WORST. I'm 180 I'm just overweight I have alot of muscles that consist most of my weight. Hockey/Soccer player I'm better at goalie for soccer and awesome deffender for Hockey.
It's also annoying that they would have to repeat stuff over and over. If I'm still up late WTH is the point of telling me to go to sleep for the 100th TIME
I don't sleep if i'm distured so telling me to go to sleep pisses me off and i dislike sleeping angry. if i'm not calm I'm not sleeping. I've been doin this for years and my grades are awesome still so Get off of my back. reason why my grades are weird now is undertermined untill i figure it out.

I may change this later on or add more. I careless about puncation and Grammar not to forget spelling error's. Ya know wha i do to Trolls?.. I shoot them in the knee.