Today I had nothing else going on. Instead of sitting home and killing time, I went out and explored some of the city. I normally get anticipatory anxiety about going into new places like stores and restaurants – it's so bad sometimes I chicken out and can't go in.
But today I think I challenged that a few times:
- I bought some tea which required talking to a clerk and negotiating the weight of the loose leaf.
- I left one of my little paintings inside a bakery I went to. (I have left over acyclic paintings of pastry from a craft sale and when I get the nerve I'll leave one in a cafe or shop for someone to hopefully find.) Again, typically I get so anxious about doing these "pranks" that I end up keeping the painting or have to leave it in a restroom so no one sees me. Today I just laid it against a wall where I was sitting – in plain sight!
- I walked several times along the same sidewalk after getting turned around even though it can make me feel stupid. I didn't feel stupid, or even that lost.
I was proud of myself now that I look back over the day. It's easy to forget you are growing, easy to forget you've accomplished things... besides Gaia Achievements. rolleyes
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