Ohaiyou...
Did you read it?
Hai...I did....
....Well that's how I feel. Abandoned, miserable and alone...
Ai...you are none of those things.
Well it sure feels like it...Can't you tell me,why? What I am...
No...I can't tell you,ai. Because my opinion is nothing.I can't tell you what you really are,but I believe this. You are a talented young girl,misled and heartbroken...and you need to let go...
Let go of what? Of the man who gave me redemption from the whore I was...? And what would I gain from it...?
Freedom. To choose what to do for yourself...
Freedom! I'm not even truly 'free' until I leave the premises of my parents! Ai...freedom is nothing if I can't be with you. I'll be alone forever,Don't you get it?
*an hour waited of no reply*
Ugh! I hate it when you do this! You take an hour to reply when I know you're reading every message I send!!
Are you stupid girl?! Do you really think you'll always be alone?! God dammit, you're not alone in the first place! Why are you so stuck in the freaking present?!
...Ai...?
...First of all, I'm probably smarter than you will ever be! And second...I will always be alone. Because I will not accept anyone else but you...because I love you, you idiot!!
*An hour to calm down fury and sadness and anger...*
...Ai...I wonder...why...everyone says you're the playboy type,everyone...
What do you mean by playboy type? That I go through relationships like they're nothing?
No...I mean...like what I used to be. A heartbreaker. I would shatter men's emotions for fun...
No, I don't do that....at least,I hope I don't....
I find you to be a much more repectable man than that...but it makes me wonder..
Why my friends call you a player
Why my mother calls you a playboy and why my brother calls you a cheater and a jerk...
...I do,though....
What...?
THEY'VE let go...and they want you to do the same...
...Ai, the way you say that it makes me wonder...where you cheating while...?
While what, Ai? While we were in a relationship? No. I haven't. Even during the time when I felt it would work again.
Have you ever lied?
No.
...Hm....So it was distance that broke us apart, was it?
Yes, distance and society.
Society?
Society told me it wouldn't work, yelled it in my ears. I came to think that; think came to belief; belief came to know....
Ai...Society also once said that whites were better than blacks. Society said that Jews had to die because of what they believed. Society says that Islam is a "peaceful religion" when it kills millions of Christians a day, and nobody knows about it! Ai, Society is a liar, and I don't believe a piece of s**t that Society says.
Because this world is evil...
*Silence...*
...So what are your plans for the future?
*Shrug.* Get into a good college, major in writing of some sorts, minor in acting of the same.
*Smirk...*
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