There's this one friend I have who is sadly one of the closest friends I have. He moved to a new school cuz he couldn't handle his life and got really depressed.
Anyways I am still in touch with him and it is just a friendship of crap Im finally realizing. He is really nice and I keep messing up. We keep fighting over the dumbest things and even when I say that to him or try to apologize it never works. I get upset when people don't forgive me. He didn't have to right away but he is making me cry and get super sad/mad.
I take responsibility and know what I have done wrong. I feel so overwhelmed with guilt all the time about it and cry a lot over these things. And I am aware I cant make people forgive me. But I'm trying my hardest to be nice about everything and he just doesn't forgive me.
These fights hvave caused him to leave at least six times and I don't want him to leave anymore. make it stop before I go completely insane cuz he isn't the only friend who has left but he is the only friend who has left more than once and I want it to stop.
..................help me.
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