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People say they love me but they really dont the just say those things to make me feel good about my self or feel speical idk why people chose to say i love you to me because all it causes is pain so much why do i give my heart out to you just so you can crush it and leave it on a curb. what does a guy have to do to get real true love ? gotta go out and be a d**k to females like all other men? because i see guys now that dont deserve love or anything but guys who acuttly treat they women right get hurt like me for instence when a ex of mines told me she loved me and wanted me and this and that why do i belv her because i really loved her what did i do to her to make her hurt me..so deeply its almost if as i just wana go and just leave tis place it makes me feel cold when i get my heart broken then anther girl comes along and starts warming it up and then breaks it again..why me i ask.. why cant i find a decent girl i mean i dont even go for looks just for personality i can care less what u look like as long im happy is that to hard to ask for now adays ? a decent women not a b***h not no bad b***h either i want a women. a rl women not on them games and is guna love me for me and let me love her and be happy with me and as i be happy with her is it rly 2 much 2 jst tell me now..