Don't look at me
I cannot think of a song and it makes me feel so shameful...
A friend from my Japanese class last semester invited me over tomorrow... but I'm terrified. She has a potluck thing going on and she offered to give me a ride. oVo I don't know what to bring and I have no idea what to wear. I don't know if I'll fit in at all cause they're all Lolita peeps T___T I know I seem really friendly and cool, if not a bit scary, online but in real life... I have not made a single new friend (besides my brother's friends who have taken quite a liking to me) since High School.
Y'know... it might have something to do with almost all of those people stabbing me in the back.
Y'know that just might be a good reason why.
>.> [/ sigh] I can't say that honestly. I know I made mistakes in high school and I do feel bad for how I treated them. Still, I wish they knew what kind of affect they had on me. I can imagine their lives, but can they imagine mine? Was it really so hard to connect with me on a deeper level? To even ... [/ sigh] I'm heading down a bad road. I might log off and watch a movie or something to keep my mind off it. I don't want that road now. Maybe bake banana bread [/ sigh~]
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Fragmented Self who wanders through life like a dreamer and wades through the river of dreams as though it were the only truth left in this world
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