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Should I smile, or frown at you pain, My heart knows not.
Should I help you to your feet or watch you in the dirt, my mind knows not.
My eyes remain on you, so cold, but filled with pity.
No love in my heart, no nothing, emptiness lies where it should be.
When you said those bewildering words I wasn't listening, and still I fill nothing as you mumble them with your tears spaying the dirt.
Should I care, should I say what I don't mean to mend you?
Or shall I break you even more, rip your wings from your back...what do I do?
I don't know how we got here, did I ever love you, Like you, favor you?
How?
But what if I do feel again...what do I do, What if I say those words?
What if I help you from the dirt, What if I mend you heart?
All of me would go to waste...my heart wouldn't budge, and you'd end up in the dirt again.
I watch closely as you look up at me and I stare in your red eyes.
Nothing to say, no reactions to give. No sorrys and no stutters.
Nothing I can do, just watch you.
Walking away may cause more tears, staying can cause the same, so watch you hurt is all I can do.
I feel not, I know not, and I am not.
I know nothing of you...of me...of this feeling called love...of Those bewildering words you spoke.
Dare not, to never say those words to me again.
I have but silence to give. I feel nothing for you.
Nothing for me, nothing for the both of us to move on, and nothing for us to stay where we are.
So where do we look, where do you reach?
For me, I cant take you hand. Why would I...I have nothing in you.
Run is all I can manage, and I find the ability to walk away.
Your tears come down harder into the dirt like rain.
But I care not, why would I...My heart is black, no where to be found, gone.
Calling after me wont make me turn around, grabbing my leg wont make me swat you away.
Must you be so foolish?
I cant love, I was never able to, go away, I said run, dont you get it?
Pity no longer in my eyes, again I walk, I cant hear you plea's to wait, I cant even see you.
I dont even know who you are...but who am I?
Who are we both?
Will I ever be whole?
My heart turns white at this notion, but I care not as my feet, bare, step on this dusty road alone, forgive not, to be forgiven not.
To never be, is the Question for this forbidden heart.....