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As you have read so far in my past reasons, Eyes, Mama and Dad and Face in the Mirror, you'll see that a smile and a laugh are not always sincere.
Now we come to reason number four: Heartbreak.
This is mostly directed to those in my life who I loved more the friends and was used, lied to and hurt by them.
To the first one I'll call Vixen; Vixen, I can't seem to understand why you pretended to love me. Why you insisted on dating me and why you suddenly decided it was pointless.
I never told you it destroyed me inside.
They way you looked at me...I knew all along and when the truth came out I should tell you I did cry. I cried all night over you and when morning came I pretended everything between us was fine.
To the second who I never dated. I liked those rumors that they started about us. Saying we were things we weren't. I like how jealous he looked and yet I felt guilty because I new he meant the world to you. That kiss on the cheek you gave me when everything was going wrong, lifted my spirits so high. You saved me that day. From committing suicide. Thank you, I'll call you Savior. Savior, you later broke my heart. Tore it out and stomped on it. When I realized I was also being used to win another's heart. The one who was jealous. My best friend. I ran from you and never turned back.
Word of advice to all of you guys out there, don't trust every pretty face.