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I'm not really good at keeping my journal updated ^^,
but then again, i haven't been active here at gaia for almost 2 years now...kinda sad, 'cause i love gaia...

my life has changed quite a bit since last time i wrote. i attended school for 2 more years, but failed to better most of my grades ^^,
on the other-hand i was in england learning this wonderful language biggrin
there i got very very good grades hehehehe xd

but then my life has been more or less downhill...my dads best friends wife died in cancer, my best friends boyfriend at school committed suicide, my best friend tried to kill herself, another friend as well, the third began to cut herself again, the guy i had fallen for toyed with me quite badly and so on and on and on...

the result of this was a deep depression, self destructive actions, anxiety and panic attacks...i spoke with professionals to get it under control and was/ am medicated for it with anti depressives and sleeping pills...

but that was 2009! now i feel better, still got lots of problems with my depression and the attacks, but the meds help a lot and so does my boyfriend biggrin
not the same guy as mentioned above, NO!!! this one is lovely, loving and caring. he's perfect for me. he got his own problems, and yet, i don't see them as such...just minor issues we always can work through 3nodding

i moved away from my parents and live now together with my partner, my beloved dog and my only 15 weeks old puppy biggrin

Though i'm still eating my pills i'm happier than ever biggrin
and that's not caused by my meds ;P