I'm starting to really hate life. Have you ever had the most crushing event in your life ever just happen and then read a book that reflects everything almost perfectly? Yeah... Just happened =. ='
It made me realize my life has changed so much more than I thought. And now I'm depressed again. I usually hate whining like this but at the moment, I'm sorry, but Internet, you're the only person I have to talk to. So you get to listen to me... Yaaay!~
You know I'm starting to think the only reason the internet was created was so that lonely people could whine to nothingness. Thank you fellow loner geeks!~ I want to hug you!!
Anyways... Yeah, if you don't want to deal with my complaining, just click the little home button right over there in the Gaia navigation bar.
I'm sad. And mad. But mostly sad. Okay so up until the 6th grade I was a complete and total loner. And I was fine with that. But then a week before 6th grade, at orientation, I made the mistake of making a friend. Now remember, up until that day I was completely independent and didn't know the meaning of the word reliance. I've noticed once you make friends you start to become more dependent on them. And after the 6th grade, I made even more friends, and once in high school a little more. Then I left my girlfriend of 6 months and I lost ALL my friends. All but one, whom I began to date. Now I've lost, everyone. The ex-boyfriend tries to talk to me still because we're somehow still the greatest of friends. Now here's where my problem lies...
I still like the ex. It would take far too long to explain the relationship's history but basically he left because he was looking at some other girl. Then he decided he wanted me back, and of course I really wanted him back. So I said yes. And then he told his parents we where dating and they said we couldn't date because we split up too much (twice). So that same night we had to end it. I told him we need to be strong and that was the end of that. Since then we've both been acting very "strong". And since for some reason the guy cannot stand being alone he's dating another ex. And in case you've never experienced this situation (which I'm sure most have not) it is very difficult to try and stay friends with someone you still have very strong feelings for.
So I've been trying to not talk to him so much, and maybe get rid of my feelings for him. And it's not working because I'm his best friend so he's always calling me and texting me. I don't really have a problem with it but seriously man.... Let me get over you! Please! DX
Well that's it for today... Later
 BattleAxePirate · Sun Aug 14, 2011 @ 07:25am · 0 Comments |
