so yes i understand i havent used the journals in forever but i suppose this is a good update: since i last used the journals (i was active on gaia for years just never posted, also its been about a year since my last log on but i intend to regularly get on gaia once again), i have gotten 4 piercings (snakebites no longer in and currently nipples have been pierced for over a year), i have gotten myself my own custom tattoo of a biohazard gear clock aimed at 10:17 for my birthday is october 17th. the biohazard symbolizes my personality for i am a contagious person, my personality rubs off on people. i'm a very outgoing and "out-there" kind of person and very much stand out and not because i enjoy attention but because i enjoy being a unique person and i hope others will join in and stop fads as much as possible. like omg you have an ipad? i want one! s**t get what you think is fun and cool and suits you and your personality. not just cuz its the net big thing! i love modernism/futurism and technology and all but i still have a flip phone with a keyboard because personally i like the keyboard. i dont want a touch screen to mess up what i want to type or do cuz it sensed wrong. i am not a religious person but i enjoy the symbol that is the angel of death, the simple judgement of who dies, when, where, and their fate. thats a pretty epic ******** you don't wanna ******** with! :p. i got into the rave scene and the drug scene but i can safely say i no longer do them. i'm still in love with the rave scene but i've been to busy with my personal life in months to of gone to one. (i quit drugs before i left the clubs). I've fallen in love with drum n bass, cannot stand 99% of dubtsep (if you are among those who love dubstep but don't even know what drum n bass is....go back to preschool please for dubstep is drum 'n bass' love child on heroin. drum n bass compared to dubstep is like what a ferrari is to a stillborn baby, a ferrari has been around a lot longer and knows how to ******** go, go fast, go hard, rip the panties of them chickas, make them cream themselves, and actually knows how to make sound! stillborn babies dont really go anywhere and are only useful in making a mess against the wall or trashcan, and don't really make people very happy campers). so bam! i have become fascinated into photography and have become a photographer for a local Dallas place: Presidential Studios :3, i of course do my own photograhy in my free time. you used to never catch me dead in a button up shirt or "nice" shirt but now i wear them all the time while still making them "dark-ish" and oh so legit. Buckle is amazing, so long as its not anything with a cross (i refuse to advertise something i do not agree with) or anything thats like: OHMYGOSHTHISLOGOTAKESUPTHEWHOLEDAMNSHIRTBUTITSJUSTOURCLOTHINGBRAND'SNAME! i used to consider myself atheist but now that i've grown up and my theories and understanding of the world and universe around me i have come up with my own theories, instead of being atheist which while most think is just no god (hell even most "atheists" think its just flat out no god), it really means you dont believe in anything and that sir or maam i believe should be an illegitamate thing to say you believe in. you have to believe in something. do you believe in love? the fact that you're real? that blue is blue not green? or maybe it is green, or purple, oooh yes purple it has to be! seriously at least call yourself an agnostic and dont be a stubborn narrow-minded a*****e and say theres no possible way god exists! maybe he does? i dont know, you dont know, nobody does, i frankly dont care. at least saying youre agnostic says you believe in the possibility and youre just not convinced. duh! i believe in the reincarnation of the soul (not mind so no i don't believe in remembering past lives, the soul can't steal memory cells from a brain and bring it along for the ride, those cells dissintegrate or decay like the rest of your body). i also believe that the whole "light at the end of the tunnel" is not you going to heaven or hell or whatever, while the possibility is there of course since anything could happen in reality, i do not believe your captured image and soul get sent to a shiny temple or whatever in the clouds or another dimension. that just sounds silly. i believe it is simply whether or not your brain and subconcious shutting down and whether or not you and they are truly in sync and satisfied with what you accomplished in your life. so live life with no regrets, try to better yourself and your own personal karma and you'll probably be happy with yourself. yes that does mean if hitler died feeling proud of what he did then he would of gone to heaven just as im sure martin luther king did. unless they did regret. idk. even tho hitler killed himself doesnt mean he regretted anything, coulda just meant he didnt wanna get ******** or beaten or hung. hey in asian tradition he commited seppuku just minus the sword and pain and added whatever he used. pill, gun, i dont remember. in any case as you can see when i'm into a conversation i can make it go pretty deep. i mean come on now don't judge man. he did what he thought was right. christian crusaders waged war on muslims and s**t and killed many people just for a damn city. and they think killing white jews is wrong? hypocrits much? uhhh....sounds like it....i realized this all in the last few years (it doesnt help that my mind is constantly thinking and talking to itself or me and i tend to think of several different things at once even when im actively doing stuff or talking with people) i have grown a fascination with psychology and philosophy as well :p.
if you would like to comment on any of this or simply strike up conversation please feel free to do so i would love to hear what you have to say :]
also if you would like to contact me on something i am on more often:
http://www.facebook.com/SquishNoctisHazardhttp://squishhazard.tumblr.com/http://squishdragon.deviantart.com/*i also have a myyearbook that i rarely use but i do use every now and then, and i'm probably gonna make a google plus soon too so just ask me and i'll let you know my url
**i no longer use my myspace but its still there so kinda pointless: myspace.com/squishdragon
