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I'm different. Im two inches taller than five feet and weigh 150 lbs. The girls in my classes from Korea and Taiwan are on crazy diets because they weigh 120 lbs, and back home, they would be thought of as obese even though, by my standards, they look fit.
I have small feet and weak ankles. I love to dance and play, but my weak joints often get the better of me. Would I change them so that I could work out more; try to loose weight?
I am impatient and only expect the best from myself and become frustrated when I don't see results. If I changed that, would I be able to stick to a fitness routine and obtain the body I want?
If i were taller, would my weight be such an issue?
I'm not so different at all.
My eyes change color with my mood, with the weather; sometimes they're green and sometimes they're stormy blue with golden accents.
I've attained a nearly perfect gpa (3.9) in my first year of college-- art school even. I work myself to the point of insanity every night to make sure i have the best work to display.
I have ears without earlobes and slender wrists. Somedays, the mirror tells me that I am simply a girl with an average build; some times, the belly pouch, thick thighs, and full upper arms are too much to bear and I break down and cry. Not so much at what I see, but at my ineptitude in changing it.
I'm a very confused person.