April 1, 2011 Friday 12:40AM
Nucc,
Did you know? I finally got my license today. While I was driving around before the test, getting to know the area (as it was in a place from home), this Pomeranian came running out onto the street. I almost ran it over.
A few minutes late I saw a black and white kitty relaxing on the curb; it was so adorable.
When I drove home, I saw a lost dog walking around in the grass by the road. Poor puppy. :<
You know, I miss being in love with you. I don't know if I would ever get back with you if given the chance, but I miss being with you.
You jerk. I was happy, believing that you and I would be together forever and ever. That we would never break up, no matter what.
I remember you once told me about how Joel and his wife were having an argument, as two chairs in the dining room were pushed aside, facing each other. This wasn't that long ago, either. Sometime in February when you moved in with them.
Anyway, you told me that if we ever have an argument, we'd only need one chair since I'd be straddling you, since we would get over our argument quickly and go straight to make-up sex.
I remember, on March 6th, when you were pleasuring me and I told you that if you continued any more I would go insane, you said, "I would like to see you like that someday." ever so coyly and seductively.
You were having doubts even then, but when we were having moments like those, did they go away momentarily? Were they not enough to make you change your mind?
I hate you.
I really don't, you know that, but I just want to say it to you.
Forgive me, Nucc, but I've been scarring. Not much, certainly not as much as before we met, but some. On my left arm and on my stomach.
I remember that day when we went to go see Black Swan and eat at Kyojin with the family, you asked about the new scar on my belly on the lower right side. I'm sorry for lying to you that time. I really am. I'm so sorry for being such a horrible person. A horrible person to you and overall.
I'm sorry.
To think that we've almost gone the longest we've ever been without contacting each other. Those 12 days without you while I was overseas were unbearable. It's so much different this time though, isn't it?
I wish I could be wishing us a happy 11 months, but I guess it's not to be so.
I wanted to be the longest relationship you had ever been in, Nucc. I guess that is fated to never be so too, huh?
If it counts for anything, then today would mark 11 months since my heart belonged to you...
You really do suck, Nucc.
Why?
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