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Watching the stars go by wile resting on the back tire of my friends truck wile listening to my friend and his girl, I come to the realization of just how cold and numb I really am inside. It's been ages since I've felt the warmth of another soul and though I'd love to have someone to share my soul with, honestly the idea scares me. It's just been so long that I don't know if I'm even capable of being warm or showing warmth anymore. Maybe, Just maybe... I've grown to love this cold numbness too much and I shouldn't even want to feel warmth anymore, but.. idk, watching the warmth between people I find myself feeling the void where my warmth once was and find myself remembering faded memory's and feelings; wile watching this ice crack I see a single shard fall and shatter on the road reminding me of just how cold and numb I really am and just how badly I wish to be warm again.