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Ok so my life has been truned up side down by one human being and her name is addison she was born december 23 2009. And she is my duagther. And I am now the proud mommy of a one year old baby girl. I am not with her dad any more I am with another man. It was kind of by chocie. I loved him but he did not love me. He did not think I was what he wanted. He wanted some one who was not so indepenet he wanted the control he lived for it. So I decied he did not want me so I would find someone who did want me and it took a little bit and a few horrible guys. It remind me why I hated dateing. But I got the best guy in the world. He is a warrier a kind but firm when he needs to be. He can be so kinded hearted and funny and loving and he loves me with everything he is and he think I am worth his time and would rather stay home then go out with his buddys. He wants to be my husband soneday and wants kids and loves my baby girl with all his heart like she was his
own and he loves to listen to me talk I don't feel sad very often. I never feel lonely. I love him with my whole heart. I don't feel the need to creep through his stuff I can trust him. He my angel and I could not ask for anything more I just wish I could tell him that but I am not so good with word when I am trying to say them out loud. But enough about frankie now to move on to my duagther when she was born she was born into a broken home her dad and I were not togther. When I was in labor I did not want him in the room that is how bad he hurt me. But when I held addison for the first timeit was like looking down at a tiny little angel and she just opened her eyes and looked at me and softly smiled it made me cry. But it has not been all good times. I have though so many time about hurting her about killing her and myself. But the one and only thing that stoped me was the though that she has not had the chance to be a kid or a teenager she has not
loved or been loved or tasted anything yummy. I knew if I did it I would go to hell for killing a beautiful baby and I would be conamend to hell forever with no one to love me or hold me. I also would have had to live wirh the fact that I took away brandons first child a grandduagther a great grandduagther a nices a great nieces a cousin and I could not do that. I am finally admidet to someone and I got help it was hard but it was what need to be done. I love my baby and I did what I need to do to keep her in my life and if that mean 5000 for therapy that is what I did and iwas happy ro do it.

Chapter 2 love and a new life

So a year has