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Crushed to broken pieces. Life is unfair. Mother is restricting me from the world. I cant have my BEST BEST FRIEND seen around me when my mother is around. IM ONE OF THOSE GIRLS WHO NEEDS TO BE 18 TO LIVE!! TO GET OUT! TO BE AN ADULT! FOR ONCE, I CAN HAVE A LIFE WHERE ONLY A FEW PEERS CAN RUIN IT! I AM FORCED TO LIVE WITH MY FAMILY WHO DRIVES ME CRAZY! I CANT HANDLE THIS! If ONE MORE REALLY BIG THING HAPPENS IN MY LIFE THAT I DIDNT WANT TO HAPPEN, I HAVE TO DEAL WITH IT! I WOULD LOOOOOOOOOOVE TO RUN AWAY FROM THIS DIMENTIONAL HOME! BUT WHERE DOES THAT GET ME?! NO WHERE! BUT WHO NEEDS TO BE GIVEN HELL? WHO NEEDS SOMEONE TELLING THEM WHAT THEY'RE DOING IS WRONG WHEN PEOPLE I ALREADY KNOW ITS WRONG! MY MOTHER IS REALLY SERIOUSLY PUSHING MY BUTTONS! I JUST CANT HANDLE THIS! IVE GONE MAD! I HAVE TO WAIT TO CRY TIL MY MOTHER FALLS ASLEEP SO SHE WONT SEE ME! I HAVE NO DAMN INTERNET BECAUSE MY BROTHER GAVE IT A VIRUS! I CANT VISIT AT FRIEND AT HOME CUZ MY MOTHER TRUSTS NOONE! I CANT EVEN HAVE FRIENDS FROM THE INTERNET BUT I DO ANYWAYS BECAUSE I KNOW HOW TO BE RESPONSIBLE FOR MYSELF!! MY MOTHER DOESNT KNOW HOW TO TAKE CARE OF MY YOUNGER SISTER BECAUSE SHE CANT HANDLE HER! SHE TELLS ME TO TAKE CARE OF MY SIS AND YA I LOVE TAKING CARE OF MY SIS BUT ITS MY MOOOOTHERS RESPONSIBILITY! GET ME THE HECK OUTTA HERE CUZ ONE DAY IM GOING TO BURST AND ITS GONNA BE UGLY!! EVEN MY FRIENDS WOULDNT KNOW HOW TO LIVE WITH THEIRSELF IF THEY WERE IN MY POSITION! YES, IM PROBABLY OVEREXXAGERATING BUT I HAVE A SENSITIVE HEART AND I WANT FRIENDS TO PHYSICALLY HANGOUT WITH AND I CANT EVEN DO THAT! I KNOW MY MOTHER JUST CARES ABOUT ME CONCERS FOR ME BUT SERIOUSLY! NOTHING SOOOOOOOOO TERRIBLE CAN HAPPEN! SERIOUSLY! IM SMARTER THAN WHAT SHE THINKS OF ME! SHE THINKS IVE GOT MENTAL ISSUES LIKE HER? HEEEEEEEEELLLLLLLLLL NOOOOOOOOOO! NO MATTER WHAT I TELL HER, SHE WONT AGREE TO ANY OF IT! AND EVEN IF SO, IT WOULD BE SOMETHING SHE'S NOT SUPPOSED TO AGREE WITH!

I CANT WAIT TO BE 18! YOU KNOW WHAT! A PERSON SHOULD NEEEEEEEEEEEEVER HAVE TO LIVE WITH THIS! AND I DO! ITS DRIVING ME UP THE WALL! GET ME OUTTA HERE SOMEONE! KIDNAP ME! TAKE ME SOMEWHERE SAFE! SOMEWHERE BETTER THAN HERE! PLEASE! T^T

i dont want to feel this pain anymore...... i've had enough..... get me outta here.... one way or another....

i just want to live how i want to without holding in anything.... i cant be myself at home..... i've handled my mother for sooooooooooooo many years already.... and 18yrs is all i can handle! CANT WAIT!

Im such a wreck...

I MISS YOU ALL SUPER SUPER SUPER SUPER ALOT ALOT ALOT ALOT ALOT SUPER INFINITE!!!! AND I MEAN THAT WITH ALL MY HEART!! <3 <3 <3 <3 I want to return to this place. I need a job. I need to graduate. I need a permit. COOKIES!

<3 Shiny <3