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As of late my dark knight confesses his love of me every waking hour he can get his voice in ear shot of mwa. And yet I still show no resopnse to his pleas. I know the games he plays and the intentions he has, and yet...
He knows me better than anyone ever has, or could, in my prediction of the furture nearer or furthur, anyways. He understands there is a deeper side of me I don't show and that wealth an' looks never paid a mind to me non-the- fairer. But my heart is cold to him.(?)
I don't understand this. He continueiously tells me how blind I am to his feelings and his heart and yet, I do know that which he preaches, the feeling is just unrequainted with my own.
I wish I could please everyone, myslef included in that as well. But not everyone is voting for the same poll so it makes it hard to decide who I shall pick. 'All is fair in love and war' but I feel like someone here is cheating. Playing a dirty trick to play on the matters of the heart, while intising the matters of the mind to indoubtably trick me into falling for their trap already cast.
I wish I still had the key... the key to my heart as well as the door to my tower. To open myslef up more, to lock everyone else out. To hide my emotions and free them to the press that mocks and edits so soundlessly and efficently. Changing things to what has never occured but draws in readers.
I wish life had a manual. It'd be so much simplier that way. Oh, but. That wouldn't lead me in matters of the heart.So, I'd still be lost.
I only wish my dark knight would respect my decision to waste my time with the red prince until I become bored and leave him as well...I quess those aren't in his morals. There are somethings I hope that are, though they shall not be spoken or uttered under breath.
I wish my dark knight would realize that I am numb. I no longer feel anymore. Though I'd like to feel. More than anything I'd like to feel.... I wish someone were there who could warm my heart, just one person for forever....

With love, deep in thought,
XOXOvv
PrinCess X