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I hate you so much, yet I can't live without you. I don't want to care about you, but I love you more than life itself. We've been placed in a very bad predicament, and either way you or I go, we're both going to get hurt. If you choose her and leave me stranded, there's no way in hell I'll be able to smile and look you in the eye and tell you everything's okay. I've cared about others and been hurt, sure, who hasn't? But you're the first boy to come along and make my every thought focus around you. You have a girlfriend. Little does she know, she's sharing you with me. And whether she knows it or not, we love each other the most. What she feels for you is nothing in comparison to the garrison of emotions I'm attacked by every day over you. Since I first met you, I've loved you. We've known each other for almost two years now, and every day that goes by I know I'm thankful I called Jimmy that night, thankful Jimmy gave me your number, thankful you texted back and we became instant friends. You claim I'm your best friend, but we both know we're past that level now. Sure, we're still BFFs. That'll never change. But I don't love you like a friend anymore. I love you more than that. My feelings for you surpass anything I've ever felt in my whole entire seventeen years on this Earth. Most will say I'm too young but they can't truly understand what I feel when you're around, how much I smile when we're talking, how much I love to say your name and to hear you stupidly say "What?" every time. I know deep in my heart that this will never change. I've thought I've loved other people, but I know that you're the one I've been madly in love with since we first talked. And stop saying you're ugly. You're gorgeous, with pretty, long, beautiful red hair and a gorgeous baby face with the most adorable smile I've ever been graced with. I can't believe you're even talking to someone as hideous as me. But I thank my lucky stars every day for you, and I know that one day I'll get my chance to make you wholly happy. You say you're engaged to her. I say you're mine, you always have been, and you always will be, no matter how long it takes us to get together. Like you said last night. Forever and ever baby.

I love you,
You rock,
Don't you ever ******** change,
Especially not for that b***h,

Kelly-Dell.