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Is it me, or is it weird how u can go to a funeral lunchen and everyone is having a good time and eating a lot of food? I know, weird question, right? Well, the only reason that i ask this is because no matter how many funerals i've been to, or how many i will go to, its always weird how u look around the room, expecting to see someone, but then it just hits u that they won't come because the funeral was for that person. Thats how i was today. cry crying sad

I just back from a funeral for my grandfather, and we all go to the lunchen. About half-way through the lunchen, i start looking around at all the people that were in the room. Mostly because i'm wondering who went home and who stayed for the lunchen, i mean come on, its a free lunch for u. how can u pass that up, right? lol Anyway, i'm looking around the room, seeing cousins, their spouses, two little babies (my second cousins), aunts, uncles, people whom i didn't know, but were apparently part of my family, my brothers, my older brother's girlfriend, my mom, my dad, my stepmom, and my grandma. i thought to myself, hey, where's Poppas (thats what we all called my grandfather)? Then, the second after i thought about that i immedently wanted to hit myself in the back of my head and thought, You idiot, this whole lunchen is for Poppas bacuse he died on Saturaday, remember? It just reminded me about my cousin's funeral and my aunt's funeral and how Poppas was at both of those, but not at this one. Sure, now i felt like an idiot, but... some would say that he was there at the funeral lunchen, he just couldn't be seen by anyone, physically. Yeah, thanks for that, whatever rolleyes . It just felt weird to have a lunchen for someone who isn't there anymore is i guess what i'm saying. confused