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omg. what have i done. it's all my fault. the only reason this happened is because of my "condition". or at least that's what i'm blaming it on. it's just a bunch of b.s. she's clingy and boy-crazy and an only child so that defiantly doesn't help at all. he's polite and nice and that doesn't help either. why did it all have to fall on that same night?? this could have EASILY been avoided. i blame myself for what happened. if i could have put it all together i would have realized that it was a bad idea. if i could do it over again it would have happened differently and they would be meeting each other for the first time tomorrow night. why is she having him come up with 25 reasons she's adorable? that's just pathetic. and she told me that she's going to put ice down his shirt. whoopty-freaking-doo. she better not show up tomorrow with that damn pentagram necklace cause then my parents will see it and ask me questions that i either don't know the answer to or don't care to know the answer. if she knew my true feelings about the situation, she would be just be going at it harder. so i just get to keep acting like it doesn't annoying the ever loving crap out of me. and what does her "making me jealous" or whatever the hell crap she's pulling accomplish??? if he weren't so dang nice i don't think they'd be hanging out. she SO TOTALLY likes him. it's more obvious then anything i've ever seen IN MY LIFE. but the worst thing is that it almost seems like he might like her back. MIGHT is the key word. i haven't gotten to good at reading him yet. but now he's a good christian (which i'm proud of him for) so he's not going to go around lying about everything. anyway. i'm done ranting for now