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Each day I live the pain consumes
Wat little sanity I hav bloomed
Like walking in a cloud of fog
Falling down sinking into smog

Life just seems grim
I think on a whim
Interest lost in everything I do
But wat a life hu really knew

Depressed to a fault that all I see
Death just seems like the only way for me
A waste of time I feel I am
But thts its nature a full mind jam

I try and try to ease the pain
A fallen effort with no gain
Thoughts begin to eat away
Makes me want to end it today

Uncomfortable around others for the way I feel
I pray and wish this all wasnt real
Life just seems more like a prison
Caged alone an abomination risen

No one could ever understand
Why I would want my death sooner than planned
Its not something I want for me
But to end my suffering this is what has to be

So I write this all as I fall from grace
Down to this place some barren waste
I know not how much longer I will last
But all I can do is pray that this will just pass