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Tired.
I just woke up after sleeping for close to 29 hours.. I don't know wtf is up with me.. but, whether it be my animia acting up or the kemo wearing me down, I don't think I can take much more of this.. It's killing me.. and.. I havn't been in a really great mood in a LONG time.. the last time I can even remember being happy was about a month ago. Ever sense then.. I've been up and down so quick I swear I'm gettin' whiplash.. Just.. I feel sick, I've been gaining and losing weight like crazy.. and I think the cancer is almost about to win.. But I'm not giving up yet.. I promised to a lot of my friends and David, that I'd try my hardest to beat this monster and live a pretty good life. And, so far, I've done all I've wanted to do (other than live in a house deep in the woods with my family. Consisting of an amazing husband [David] and my two kids [twins Mango Skyluh Chavando and Danny Optimus Megatron Chavando].) I just hope I get to live that long.. : But if I don't ah well.. at least I've had amazing friends (the ones who ACCUALLY talked to me!) and David.. I'm sorry if I come off a bit.. "cry baby"-ish.. but just try and imagine what an impending death would feel like if Death was stalking you..

With Love,
A7lly