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I flip through a deck of cards, playing them one by one.
Every single time I lost, dissatisfaction some lost cause.
I keep on playing for a reason, though one that's foolish.
Yes, it's foolish...
I'm searching for the ones that are you.
Yet you have that guy, that guy...
You have that man by your side, who can be trusted and your knight...
So that leaves me....

Do you want the truth?
I messed up bad for you.
My inner heart's desire...something I know I'll never be able to acquire.
As I became so weak...my heart deflated and I went bleak...
Well you have the truth.
I'll never stop playing until I find a girl like you.
Kitt, Kitt, Kitt, just put me down before I lose it all and break myself down more...

Losing to my end's wits...
Ending up as drunk and hung-over from hits.
Empty bottles strew the floors...
Reeks of alcohol and plenty more.
I messed up big time, I can't stop now.
I only kept playing to forget my heart crying out for you.
Somehow...
There will never be anyone just like you.

Kitt, Kitt, Kitt....
You gave me hope and made me better.
I wish I never messed up, I can't bear to weather on all this pain.
All this guilt inside my brain.
Regrets and sorrows don't make this a game.
Every card I find...
Every girl I wish I could have as mine...
None of them will ever be you...
Either they couldn't straighten me out...
Or they threw my life into Hell, oh...
Why did I do this to you?
My dear Kitt.

Do you want the truth?
I messed up bad for you.
My inner heart's desire...something I know I'll never be able to acquire.
As I became so weak...my heart deflated and I went bleak...
Well you have the truth.
I'll never stop playing until I find a girl like you.
Kitt, Kitt, Kitt, this is breaking me apart...I'm tearing myself inside out...

Kitt, Chloe, if I had to choose.
I would spin back time before I betrayed you.
This crash and burn hurts because of this goddamned truth...
Realization has no patience or pity for those who choose too late.
I'm way too late...
That's the truth.

You'll never feel that way to me.
It will stay as some friendship guaranteed.
But as I look at it now....
I ruined it.
I ruined everything you see?
And then I had to tell you.
Had to let it go.
Had to speak the realization, the truth...

The truth about you Kitt...
Is that is was...always you that I picked.
Oh...Kitt...

I love you more than you'll ever know.