Friday, June 4, 2010
Yesterday was the last day of school. Great right? No, not for me. Why?! Am I crazy? Maybe. But for the past two weeks I had been working on a poem and a heart-felt note for Evan planning on giving it to him, personally. If you take a look at my 5/28/10 post you'll know that I was freaking out because I thought the day before that was my last day. Well I got to see him this last Tuesday and I was so happy. He gave me like a ten miunte hug and told me that I didn't need to cry, and that he was going to come back. So I saw in Wednesday and I had my rough draft of the letter and the poem.
All during my English final I got to listen to graduation practice. The whole bit- the music and the names...the speeches. Everything... Well my next final was in Band, pit didn't have a final so we got to hang out. Two hours in the class. It took me an hour and half to write the letter to Evan... Well I looked up from my writing one time and saw him in the room. I figured he'd stick around after school to say bye to everyone so I didn't get up off my dam* a** and hug him. So the bell rang and I was finished with the letter. I went outside to the spot I always go to with Evan after school...he wasn't there.
I felt comepletely lost without him there. I saw his sister, one of my best friends Emily, and decided that even if I couldn't get the letter and poem to Evan myself I'd give it to Emily to give to him. So at least he got the letter, even though I didn't get to see him read it, or hug him afterwards, or say goodbye. Your Gaurdian Angel by The Red Jumpsuit Appartus (#1) and Broken by Seether and Amy Lee (#2) on my profile playlist has ben dedicated to Evan from me, he knows it, I told him. Also Miles Apart by Yellowcard (Can't remember what number) and Angel of Mine by Evanescewnce were also dedicated to him as well from me. He knows that too.
So that's what I'm going to live with... Plus my best friend (one of them) doesn't understand anything because she gets to see the guy she 'likes' for the next two years so she thinks its for the best I didn't say goodbye.
I love my Evan...
Lov3-Dizzy Community Member 
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