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I HATE FROGETTING!! my greatest fear is forgetting everthing u.u I hate no being able to remember stuff. I've frogoten so much already, It makes me feel like a part of me is missing. I have boxes full of stuff now to help me remember. I label them "memorys" I keep EVERYTHING someone gives me. I never throw it out. I can barley remember stuff from before the 5th grade. I mostly remember bad stuff, like why I'm afraid of busses so much...........

Stuff I remember (preschool-5th grade):
-How I always went to the office because I wanted to feel like someone cared for me
-How one day my dad said he hated me
-How I used to fight with three of my guy friends
-How I didn't really have any enemys
-some of my friends: anne, Zavana, Stuart, John, Austin, Robert, Chris, Courtney and kimberly (those are all the friends I can remember as of now from 1-5th grade)
-How I learned to read at a very early age
-How I loved to help children younger then me because it made me feel wanted
-How A bus driver made me get off two stops before mine, and made me walk all the way home (needless to say she got fired)
-How I couldn't remember anything one day when I was eight
-How I got lefted on the playground one day with one of my friends, she was crying and I walked with her back to the back door of our class room. Then I got yelled at for the teacher not counting all of the students!!!
-How I Begged my parnets never to make me ride the bus again
-(I can not post this one because it kinda makes me sad remembering this one)
-How My first date was with this guy named robert at the movies
-How anne set me up with robert!! stressed
-How I never covered my mouth untill I turned 8
-How I could never get to sleep at night till I started getting sleeping pills (which still barely help) (this also started when I was 8 years old)
-How I always felt ther was something wrong (started when I was 8 years old)
-How I started getting dreams that actually happend (started when I was 8 years old)
-How I started acting "diffrent" (started when I was 8 years old)
-How I couldn't remember anything before I was 8
-How I felt one day that I just become alive (when I was eight years old)

Ok, basically I can only remember bad things from before I was 8, Its werid really, I remember how one day (it was my 8th birthday) I just felt different, more alive! I dk why though >.< But I am happy with not knowing what happend before then, I have a feeling I don't want to know what happend before then...........