Alright, so thing's are going ok I guess. There's still alot of drama going on, but at the moment the only things that matter to me are my family. I'm worried that a storm is coming, and I don't know how it all will end. I know things are going to be hard, before and after "The Storm" hit's. I have been missing my friends alot lately and I keep getting lost inside my head. I keep thinking maybe I will switch again, and that worries me. I know things aren't the same, and I don't know if things will ever go back to the way they where. I don't know if I want them to either. I'm beginning to see that I am slipping in and out of who I am. Sometimes I really feel as though I am more then one person. That maybe there are different sides to me, and that I am not the original. I also think that the original want's to come back out. I'm afraid of losing myself. I'm also afraid of what will happen to the people around me if I do switch selves. I don't know if they would be able to handle that. I love my friends and family with my whole heart, but I wonder who of them love's me. Do they love the me I am now, or the me that I was (and my be again soon)? It's scary to think the people who you love so much might not really love you for you, and that you might lose them to a better version of yourself. I don't really think anyone will read this, but if someone dose, and they have advice to offer, then please send me a message, I would really appreciate any advice you may have to offer.
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Kagoma'z Way ^.~♥
This is how I see things, how I hear them, and what I think about whats being said. I'm tired of always keeping my mouth shut, it's time for my voice to be heard.
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