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My eyes are sore from crying
and I don't want to give up trying
My heart is split in two
From all the pain you put me through
and I just can't see why you would do this to me
You knew it would hurt, why cant you see?
That what you did was very heartbreaking
Every time I think, I cant stop shaking
My head is throbbing and in circles just thinking about it
I'm just so tired of the drama and all this s**t
I can't forget
I don't think I'll ever be happy again
because the person I'm talking about was my best friend
She went behind my back without thinking how i would feel
and made my heart so ******** up, it will never heal
said she wanted to date my ex boyfriend
I knew that wasn't ok and I wouldn't like the end
I told her that I didn't like the idea and it would hurt me
but she did it anyways and disagreed
Sometimes I just wish life was over and I wouldn't have to deal with it
because what just happened to me I know i wont forget
and it makes me sad that I don't think she'll ever see
that what she did really hurt me
and she'll never realize what she did was wrong in every way
She never gave me a chance to let me say what I needed to say
Now I'm in a dark little corner all alone
She's what brought me up to my comfort zone
I know for a fact that this whole thing was wrong
but I just cant accept the fact that she's really gone
Did she really use me like everyone else?
Or did she really love me for myself?
I've always needed a person to turn to
because I need the support to get me through
and I don't have that and never will anymore
and this problem keeps chewing me down to the core
I just cant handle this guilt and pain
Its driving me madly insane
I feel sick to my stomach and disturbed in my head
over some big hurtful words my used to be best friend had said
and I don't think I could ever get over it
because I know it didn't hurt me just a little bit
I want to go sleep and never wake
I wouldn't care if my life was at stake
I lost someone very important to me
She was a best friend, my family
So i dedicate this poem to my was best friend
and I hope she knows I will always love her till the end

Helen