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I am back to being depressed and my old thoughts again. I was on such a good streak of being happy and loving life and the ones in it. I still love the ones in my life but perhaps I love them too much... Is there such a thing? I worked 8 hours today and I came home and didnt get much time at all to text my fiance who I haven't seen in two weeks that will become three weeks. I got all pissed off and then depressed because when I was all pissed, I made him annoyed so now I want to make him happy again while I am still depressed myself... Many of you will ask why or how I would do this. First of all, my friends and family I ALWAYS put before me so if someone is upset or something, I put everything I am dealing with aside to help them. So I just answered both questions in one sentence. So, when I help him I am left with the same problem and thoughts as before unhandled. What the heck am I suppose to do? I want someone to help me for once. But then I feel like crap because I feel I am being selfish... the only thing that may be keeping me here is my fiance himself...

Help?
Vampyre_Kitty12