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I feel the pain I feel is nothing compared to the pain I cause others..
I feel worthless in that I can't make others happy or even cure their bordom...
My life doesn't feel like its worth the time I've spent...
I feel my existence has hurt more people than its ever helped...
All I can do is try to survive, to live on to the next day, and to do my best not to give up on this existence...
I know giving up isn't the way, but sometimes it feels like its all I can do...
I'll keep on living the best I can, even if I'm alone, I can always do my best to go on..
Even if I can't do anything for anyone else, or even myself, I can still exist...


I want to disappear from this world... But I don't want to die.. I don't want to die...
But if I were to disappear the only thing I'd regret is not being able to comfort the one closest to my heart, to have been there for her when she was sad, to have held her when she was hurt or to have given her my heat when she was cold, I would regret it all.. So I'll continue to exist until I can bring her that love, in person.. And to give her a life where we can both be happy..

I thank her for giving me my reason to exist, and I thank her for giving me that shove to live on, and continue, for if I never received that push I wouldn't be here to give these words.. I wouldn't be here, to live, and I wouldn't be here to talk at least cure someones loneliness...