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Ok this is all mai f***** up life in a small journal entry

Ok well at first everything was ok lived in mississippi at age 5 i had a great frend named Bobby and he was mai first black friend and he was the best friend i had too and we would jump off my swing set and have a great time than age 6 mai parents broke up at midnight i still remember the whole thing i walked out with mai blanket and they were yellin at each other and eventually a cop came he was black and bald with a navy blue uniform and eventually Thomas mai brother came out to bring me back to avoid me watchin the fight than i moved to Pennsylvania starting over was a bad experience i had a mean step mom who always yelled at me and thomas eventually illegally moved at age 16 to my moms house i had great friends and was bullied at school mai dad hit me and mai step mom was a b***h but back to mai frends they were great i even have a quote from my yearbook "Derek, next door neighbors for ever until you move D-Rock nerf tag buddies" man he was kool but he had a mean dog but like it says we were next door neighbors and we played nerf tag alot an mai other frends were Steven Aversano, John Later, Jason Winder, Nick Rech, Michael Lang, Brian Taft, Aaron Williams and many more but i had a great time there than the time came when mai dog died it was horrible... i came home and she was on the ground dead i took her collar went upstairs and cried we found her after a hurricane in a trashcan in mississippi and we had her for years so i was so attached and i even made a video dedicated to her http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Aj6A5ud-mPM

after my dogs death my uncle died and i moved to louisiana and i didnt get to say goodbye we left at 2:00 am and when i got in that car i realized im leaving my life behind, my frends, my crushes, my school, and everything now im here ive been here for about 3 years almost 4 and its not bad but last year i visited my mom and im glad i asked to be driven to florida because i spent tim with my grandpa but i called em "cappy" i dont kno why but i did the 2nd day at my moms Cappy was in the hospital he had 2 heart attacks and at 8:42 pm they pulled the plug and Cappy was dead once again i cried and cried and i couldnt even look at my mom cause she was always crying which made me cry more and feel horrible since than ive been ok i guess my girlfriend cheated on me and my dad continued to hit me i hope the future is better for me i am going to join the Army and no one can stop me and if i die ill kno i died a hero fighting for my country

who ever reads this now you understand why my life sucks