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Sitting here in the darkness of my cold room. Only the sounds of my t.v and my light breathing each o off my ear drums i wonder what to do. I should go to bed i have to be up in like 5 and a half hours so i can go to dumb old school. My mind is cold and silent as it useally is unless i am with him. Once i am with him then it is full of happiness. My heart doesn't beat as well as it should, but when it is with his it beats 1000s of times a second it feels like. I am so happy when i am with him and would never change him for anything in the world. I would rather die then be without him. He is my world my everything. Every night i wish i would dream of him with his arms all around me and holding me tight and never letting me go. When i am without him it's like a nightmare that never stops. I want it to end so that he and i can be together forever and ever. I want a family with him and only him. I love him to death and for eternity. I might as well see if i can fall asleep, but i dought i will be able to anyways. Well see ya.