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I'm still unhappy. crying I don't know why! I want to fix it! I don't know HOW!
I'm so frustrated with people. All people. I feel like whenever I try to build a relationship with someone, it doesn't work. All my friends move away and lose touch and as much as I try to deny it, I have a pretty strong feeling it's going to happen with Dee and Denise, too. Everyone's leaving to college. Now what?
"Ooooh Amanda! Just make some new friends! It's not like it's impossible."
Ooooh it feels impossible alright. I'm not too fond of my generation. I don't like the place I live in because the people here are just.... >.< I don't know.
I know I'm generalizing alot but... I don't. Like. People! crying And I'm never going to have any good relationships if I keep saying that so I guess I'm just a big hypocrite!


... And then there's Nolan.
Finally, I thought, a guy who I like who likes me back! That's a first!
>.> That didn't go anywhere. Because I'm too young and he's too busy and there's just always SOMETHING in the way! It's me and my big imagination that's in the way. It was all in my head and I wish I could just stop talking to him and leave it at that but I can't. crying He's one of my friends too and I can't just NOT talk to him!

I don't know what to do. crying

And complaining to this journal doesn't make me feel any better at all.....