"Come for a walk with me Allison" Robert said
I followed him willingly into the forest. When we finally got deep enough into the forest he stopped and turned to face me. Something was wrong with him and i could see it in his eyes.
"i dont want you anymore. i hate you" he said with no emotion in his voice.
i felt like my world crash all around me and i got punched in the chest.i couldn't believe these words he was speaking to me. My heart started to hurt.
"what are you talking about? you said you loved me and that u wanted me forever..." i said sadly.
"i dont want you,you're not worth it" he said
"but why tell me why?" i yelled as my eyes started to sting with tears.
"because...i have my reasons" he said staring at a tree. i walked up to him and made him look at me.
"i have the right to know those reasons!" i yelled.
"i just dont feel the same way for you anymore. im sorry i let this go on for so long. im sorry that you hung onto me and wouldn't let me go."
"thats because i loved you! we made promises to each other that we would wait for one another!" i yelled tears started to stain my face.
"well im sorry but i can no longer keep that promise" he said and held my face in one of his hands to make me look at him. "i am really sorry about this Allison" he said.
i slapped his hand away,
"if you really were you wouldnt be doing this" i said as two more tears left my face. I closed my eyes trying to believe this but i just couldn't i couldn't accept the fact that it really was over.
"bye" was all he said and he turned and walked away, when i opened my eyes he was no where to be seen.
i followed him into the forest calling his name over and over because i couldnt accept the fact that it really truely over.
i knew i was getting too deep into the forest and i was probably lost by now and no one would find me,but i had to find him.
i kept walkingand then started running, i tripped and fell but i didnt get up. i felt there was no point to get up and walk away from this, from him, and keep living happily when the one guy i actually loved walked out on me. i saw no point to living without him.
i heard someone coming towards me i hoped they wanted to kill me or planned on killing me, "death would be good for me" i thought. it was the only way i would ever get over him. i already felt like a body with no soul.
they stopped in front of me and knealed down next to me, tears stained my face.
"are you ok?" he asked.i opened my eyes and just stared at him in disbelief.
"Jovon?" i said surprised. this was the guy who made fun of me before but we were friends. He never hurt me but yet i was such a jerk.
"Why is he here?" i thought.
I shook my head no;
"i should have listened to everybody and now im the one who got hurt again.I dont belong in this world"i cried.
"im sorry. if u want to leave and not listen to all my sad complaints" i cried covering my face.
He picked up my hands and moved them from my face and held onto them i stared at him.
"you do belong in this world Allison. maybe some of the decisions you made weren't good ones but thats ok,we aren't all perfect" Jovon said staring into my eyes.He picked me up and carried me and i just stared at him.
"why are you being so nice and doing this for me?" i asked confused.
"because i...i..i love you allison. you're an amazing girl you dont deserve what he did to you. you deserve so much better than him" Jovon said watching a head of him so he didnt fall like i did.
i put my hand on his face and made him face me,
"Jovon i love you too and i know someone who will treat me right if he will give me a chance." i said he put me down and i stared into his georgous brown eyes and i kissed him."you" i said
"i know that you would treat me right and never hurt me". He held me to his chest and said "i love you". We kissed again and I forgot everything that happened and I realized that Jovon was all that mattered to me now. And i can't live without him.
For the first time in a long time i felt whole like i could never get hurt again.
As long as I have Jovon by my side and the love we share I'll live happily forever with him.
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