I'm going to DEARLY miss 2009.
I'm pretty sure it was the most amazing year of my life and it always will be, no matter how much happens next year. Funny how 2009 began. It began with Annika and Emily saying how I scared I was of this year. Which, then, I didn't know what was to come. I should've been prepared for the most dramatic year of my life. It began with me liking a shy boy. Which, then, I didn't know what troubles he brought with him. I should've seen through his shyness. It began with me being quiet, like my usual self. Which, then, I didn't know the full extent of my emotions. I should've been prepared for a flood of them.
I'm not saying 2009 was a horrible year for me, well it was, but in between it was amazing. I can't describe this year for you, though I wish I could. If I did, it would surely take, well, a year. I met the most amazing people, and continued being friends with the ones I met before this year. So many people have shaped the way I am. Without them, I'm pretty sure I'd be a boring soul. These people, my friends, my ex-friends, my peers, my teachers, I will always remember, for no matter how long I live. I'm sure to remember a certain few, because I hope I'll be with them until the end.
Speaking of the end, wink
It's the end of the year. While just a half a year ago I thought it was the end of my life. I thought I wanted everything to end just then. I didn't care what I had to live for, because I thought I didn't have anything to look forward to. I wasn't, persay, a fan of "Life" on facebook. I now notice how disturbing that thought is. I don't want to die, I mean sometimes the thought comes back, but it's never as serious as that horrid time in my life. I never want to go back to that time. No matter how horrible I feel, I remember: I've been through worse, Other people have it worse, You're being stupid and selfish, Atleast you're not...(place person's name here that has it worse than you.)
This should be a time of celebrating, being it only a week from Christmas, two from New Year's. But, for me, it is a time for mourning. Mourning for the end of a great year. Mourning for all the things I lost this year that I probably won't get back. But, celebrating the holidays.Celebrating for a new beginning. Celebrating the new things I got this year. There are many things to celebrate, but I am just too sad to deal with the end of this year.
I don't know where to start this year.
Let's start with a New Year's Resolution.
This year, I want to be a better person. Socially, Educationally and Physically.
Love,
Andria Grant
December 18th 2009
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