I don't have a good reason to work. I tried to work and do the projects I really need to do A.S.A.P. but i cant... I don't have a motivation to... I want to do well in school. Sure. Buty why? I know my parents would get really mad at me if I didn't. I know that I wouldn't be able to do well in life. Sure. But what else? There's stuff that's missing. I'm surrounded by fantasies and I'm waiting for something exciting. But I live in reality. Reality is boring in many ways. I want to do something fun. Right now. As a kid. I want to go out there and explore. That's why I wanted to be an archaeologist, but then it would take out too much of my life if I had a family. I'm also a cowered. Life would be easier if I was smarter, yes. Do I realy have to live life so boringly without motivation? I want to keep dreaming, but I want a dream to come true here in reality. Otherwise, my life is being wasted every moment I live. What to do...What to do... Damn it...
-xky0ko-chanx- · Sat Nov 28, 2009 @ 04:51am · 0 Comments |