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Well, dammit. I'm totally confused. What do you do when you're sick on one of your favorite holidays of the year and you have over 20 guests coming over for dinner? I swear I was going to be quarantined in my room until everyone left. (You know, H1N1 and all that crap...) But of course, I'm forced to entertain guests, and play with my little cousins, and talk to everyone until finally my throat totally gives out...and so here I am, with terrible congestion, a headache, chills, and the likes. Dammit. This isn't what I had planned for my thanksgiving break crying

Eh, but then again, I'm being too dramatic. It really isn't that bad. I'm just complaining because I just told my friends that I hadn't gotten sick in half a year...a new record for me. xd Go figure, I had to get sick the day after. I jynxed myself, didn't I? confused Anyway, it isn't that bad. I'll probably be better by tomorrow, or Sunday at the latest. Yippee ki yay... stare (For all those who aren't Die Hard fans, that was a reference to the series.)

Hm, now onto other topics. Well, I'm a little angry right now. And confused. I was sort of played by a guy who's nice and stuff, but his dating morals are WAAAYYY out of line in my opinion. I don't like the idea of an open relationship. It's like saying, "I can date you and have all of the benefits of a girlfriend, but without the emotional attachment." Which, in my opinion, it the best part of a relationship...the emotional, attachment I mean. I'm over him now, but he caused me a lot of pain and confusion. it's all good now. He's a friend, so I'll help him, but I won't get tangled up like that again.

Which brings me to my next problem. Now that I know that guys can really take advantage of me, what do I do? I've always said that I won't easily be played, but now I know that I can. So how I can i trust a guy? How can I know that they like me? Or if they don't like me? I'm so confused...

However, I do have someone that I like now. He's sweet and funny and caring and helpful and I'm very thankful for him. heart I met him through sort of sketchy circumstances - online - if you know what I mean. But I don't know what to do now. This whole thing is getting to be pretty complicated. The funniest thing is, these problems have been replayed over and over and over again throughout the course of history...which is to say that I'm only one of billions to have these problems. But they're still complicated, no matter how mnay times they happen. Go figure. Life is complicated. You just have to roll with it. wink

DoMiKaT

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