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I am really upset right now. My old man, a few months ago, went to a party with his friend Mike and attempted to drive home with no troubles. My father is suffering from a small case of depression which is causing him to drink more than he should. Regardless of his intoxication he was able to drive well UNTIL a cop pulled him over for one of his taillights being out and then smelled the air of the car.
My father is going to be in freakin jail for the next three weeks becuase he was stupid and didnt ride with Mike! I didn't even get to see the damn man ALL FLIPPIN SUMMER!!!! And now he's dissapearing again!!!!
He claims to be a far ahead thinker! He claims to know what he's doing!
BULLSHIT!!!!!
He's not thinking about me and trevor! Trevor really needs a fatherly figure to help him out especially now in this stage of his life! No my father doesn't exactly need to be physically naer my brother in order to coach him, but it breaks my heart to see that Trev is trying his hardest to reach my old man, and the old fart wont tell us where he lives or what he plans to do now that he's moved!!!!!!!!!
But he can't have that bond with my dad becuase my mom is being dumb and won't let my father anywhere near the county UNLESS it's an exchange.
And obviously my father is in jail. Almost all of my blood related uncles to my father's side are jailbirds or druggies! And my mother's side! She won't even speak to half of them!
WHAT THE HELL AM I SUPPOSED TO DO!? MY FAMILY DOESNT FREAKING THINK! TREVOR AND I ARE HERE! IM WORKING MY a** OF AT SCHOOL SO THAT I CAN BRING THE BENIFITS OF MY FAMILY TOGETHER! TO COME OUT ON TOP OF ALL THIS BULLSHIT!!!!!!!
BUT HOW IN THE HELL AM I SUPPOSED TO DO THAT WHEN THEY FREAKING DRAG ME DOWN IN THINGS LIKE THIS?!!!!! I KNOW THAT OTHER PEOPLE HAVE THEIR LIVES AND FAMILIES LITERALLY BORN OUT OF HELL, MILLION TIMES WORSE THAN MINE! I GET THAT! I AM JUST TIRED OF MY FAMILY LETTING ME DOWN AND IN RETURN I LET THEM DOWN!!!!!
WHAT DOES THE WORLD FREAKING WANT FROM ME!!!!!!!!!!!