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I had made up my mind while I laid in the bed. I was going to drop out of school, get a job to support myself, and lastly, I was going to hunt for my mother's ghost. This would sound crazy if I had told someone about this plan, but what do I care? I'm alone and scared and the sharp stabbing pain had become a lifeless blackness in my heart. I don't care for the world much... and if things got really bad, I always had plan B. Suicide.
Yeah, the thought had crossed my mind several times, and for the pass week I've had two tries and fails at it too. Once I tried drowning myself, the next was jumping off the top of the building, but every time I tried too, it seems I'd black out and wake up right back in bed. Seems my mind doesn't have the nerves to follow through.
I had no idea what to do now, I felt helpless and weak. That's when it clicked, like a dull heavy rock to the back of my skull. I jumped up off my bed and screamed at the top of my lungs. "I DON'T CARE ANYMORE!", and that was it, I think every bad feeling had gone away and was replaced hate, anger, and even insanity.
"If your going to not care anymore... maybe you can help me..." The voice sounded as if it had an evil grin to it, I looked around but couldn't find anyone. "Who's there?!" I looked around in a crazed manner ready to attack. "Shh, don't be afraid little Bells, I'll be your friend and lover if you like..." My eyes darted around the still room and something caught my foot, I saw a flash of what looked like a dark claw swing my leg up under me where i fell flat on the ground staring into the darkness under my bed.
There was something there, something... breathing. I could see his eyes, they illuminated in the shadow like cold yellow wolf eyes. Too weak from crying earlier i could only lay there staring at him. "who are you...?" There was a laughter that sent a chill up my spine. "I am your guardian angel, Bells." I could feel the shadow move closer to my face, I could make out what looked like a human face smiling wickedly at me in the shadows. "You can call me what you like... Bells, so long as you'll let me protect you..." His black twisted claw reaches out to touch my arm, I closed my eyes and let him grasp hold of it.
I opened my eyes to see him slowly drag me under the bed, I didn't care, this was my only friend now. So, once again, I fell into darkness.