i mean reeeaaallly think. theres the good times and bad times. theres always fights, maybe a little blood shed. theres always that happy moment that you miss.
have you ever lost someone close to you? or that person has lost themselves?
i have.
i lost my dad. or really who he was.
theres so many things that you miss. i miss hugging him and smelling tobacco and fresh cut grass. now all i smell is drugs.
i miss the way he looked. now i just see something that im afraid of
i miss his laugh
i can go on and on
i know i will never get him back. so why torture myself with a false hope. my mom always looks at me like im a monster because i dont have faith in him but he took that faith away.
i lost what use to be my mom too
have you ever had a friend that was the closets person to you?
i have but i lost him
have you ever felt like the whole world is against you?
it hurts but theres always going to be at least one person that will be there for you
have you ever really truly hated someone?
i hate at least 2 people
have you ever felt like its wrong?
no because they deserve it
have you ever made promises and broke them?
it really hurts when you do
have you ever hurt yourself?
yes...
do you regret it?
YES!!
have you ever been in love?
i am in love. my love is a love that no one will ever have. its more than just love, more than true love, it cant be explained. we are the only two people that do understand it and feel it. its so strong that we get physically sick without the other. i cant eat or sleep. when i do sleep i wake up looking for him when hes not there and my heart breaks. we have fights sometimes but nothing can break us apart, we have a bond thats stronger than you can imagine. hes the reason i wake up and take that first breathe. the reason i keep going when i feel like i cant take anymore. without him i slowly die. he is my lion, my prince, my love, my baby, my life, my everything, my one and only.
i will add more when im not so tired~ heart
