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Okayes me HATES school. I went to the library this morning and my school has the smallest fiction section in the world. And the graphic novel section is worse... It's a little tiny bookshelf consisting of books mostly about the simpsons. Not that I have anything against the simpsons but I was hoping for some manga. They don't even have Fruits Basket. crying To think I spent all summer fantasizing about a HUGE library with endless manga. But no, I get there to find the smallest library I've ever seen and an even smaller fiction section.

On a more serious note, I feel so alone. I only have two friends to begin with, and I'd be happy to go to school every moring if I had a class with at least one of them. But I don't. I am also at the very, very, very bottom of the food chain. For some reason, everyone hates me, and hate them back.
Here's a lovely story. Thursday, when I went to lunch, I spotted a girl I was friendly with. We're not bestest buddies or anything, we were in 6th grade, but the friendship sort of diminished over the years. Anyways, I go over to this girl to sit down, we still talk sometimes. And oh, but didn't I enjoy the horrified looks on the faces of the girls surrounding this particular aquiantance. That was sarcasm people (the enjoying not the horrified). I am still devestated and wondering why do these people not want to be around me? I'm not unattractive, I bathe every day, I brush my teeth, I wear clean clothes. Is it because I don't shop at brandname stores like Hollister or Abercromie & Fitch? Or Baby Phat or South Pole? I listen to the same music as these people, I laugh at the same things. Is it because I was daring enough to, when I moved to this district, give the people at the bottom of the food chain a chance? Because I was a friend to them when they had no one else? Because I didn't go straight to the top of the food chain with all of those perverse ding-dong heads? (No offense if your at the top of the food chain in your school, that's just how the kids are at mine) I'm not sure I want those people as my friends. I'm just sick of being alone.
I'm out.