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So this is the second time my boyfriend has ''broken up'' with me. I guess there will allways be that part of him that wants freedom, and be the 15 year old boy he is. But he doesn't seem to realize that he isn't the normal boy, because of his bitchy mom. I knew it was coming the second time, and I allways feel like I'm to blame.

He says these things to me while still caring for me. I just don't get it. He says he loves me but he also wants his freedom. His friends tried to set him up with this goth girl at the party. When they were playing manhunt she tried to kiss him for a second, and succeded!!! So I'm just going "********' great. . ." He says he pushed her off and explained things to her. Not only are they still friends, but what she did made him want freedom even more.

I'm so confused, I love the boy to death but his confusion is driving the both of us insane. At times he does have two personalities. . . . and it's ******** annoying. He loves me, and I love him. But that part of his brain (which has slowly been getting stronger) doesn't want me. Do I let him have his freedom? But honestly both times we've done so, my heart broke and he still wanted me.

Now, I'm worried about how strong that part of his brain will become. I know things can't/won't last forever, but it kills me to have it end. I guess the good thign is if this all ends he says he wants to be my friend (because I will eventually forgive him)