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The way I feel...
What’s with me? I don’t know why, but it feels like the hole world is coming down on me. I want to run away, but my feet wont move. My life is full of nothing but pain, but I can feel it. The something that will save me. Its coming, but why? Why would anyone want to save me. I’m the one that will hurt them and I’m the one that will end up leaving them and making them cry. No one should have to cry for me. I’m not wroth it. I want you all to just go away and don’t look back. Because looking back means you have hope for me. I don’t want it. All hope is good for is for the weak and I’m stronger then I look. I don’t need someone to hold me and tell me that they will protect me. What you don’t get is that I need to get hurt so that I can get stronger. So when you say “I’ll save you.” or “Don’t worry I wont hurt you.” and “I’m here to make it better.” all I’ll say is “I don’t need you.”. Because the truth is, you’re the one that needs me. But I’m not someone that is ready to protect someone. That’s why when someone says they love me I want to ask them what do you see in me. Do you see the one you want to spend the rest of your life with. Or do you just think that love is the first feeling you get when you just really like someone. I know you think there’s no different, but there is. And I don’t want love. That’s why I’ll say your nuts when you say it, and that’s why I’ll run from you. But don’t think its you, because its not. Its me, its always me. I’m the one that’s no good and I’m the one that should feel like my life has no meaning. So go on living your life, just don’t make me be in it to.
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