Forcefully you concurred me.
But the guilt wasn't in my favor.
Your twisted words of petty lies,
contused and stricken the air.
For some reason this isn't fair.
You're wicked eyes stare at me.
Infused with pointless rage.
Your princesses,
Your goddess
The women you worshiped
had disappeared and come again
as an impure
maiden.
Nothing but a whore.
What once graced her perfect face,
had died and was replaced with ugly.
You will never understand.
She is and will always
be everything she is
now;
The whore in her had never died
or was struck awake.
I'm sorry fool you are mistaken.
Your face bares a hideous
expression.
Confusion mixed with disbelief .
I don't dare smile at your pitiful state of question.
I don't dare let you know how great chaos tastes.
Lay on the floor with glass in my hands.
Just watching you touch her lifeless body.
I stare at the man I once loved.
The teacher I had admired
now all I once see
is gone.
It almost pains me to see you in this state.
Just looking at you face over joys me.
Your so helpless you don't know what to do.
You don't know what you've done.
You shared your pain with someone who was already lonely.
That was the first mistake starting your teaching quest.
Teaching those to ignorant to teach themselves.
Your selfish ways have disowned you.
Inflicted so much pain on my sensitive heart.
I locked away what little emotion i had left.
You never knew the card i played.
You saw me and that was all you could keep.
Your selfishness screamed out what you tried to hide.
I understood your reckoning.
I remembered everything even when
you left me with no sight.
Looking back i moved along, wishing i could destroy my path.
I tried to take my own life.
A bystander was who saved me.
Then again i was lost in all that i was.
I stood upon the wooden chairs edge.
Temping my every desire.
Just to jump.
To land.
To die.
To feel.
Instead of fall i took in the view
and thats when i got your call.
I took you back and yet again.
I was devoted not to let you slip away.
Sometimes i really question that because
i became your slave.
I carried on this beaten path.
The one you so carelessly paved.
That's when i saw your lost of interest.
your destroying eyes needed new meat
a new toy to poke and pinch
at your hearts desire.
One that was cold and ugly fit.
Some how you saw past her stupidity.
You saw beauty,
The beauty my envy clouded.
Labeled as too much to bare.
I watched you play with her.
You deny now what you didn't see.
I stood behind the dotted line,
because i couldn't handle what could come.
You loving someone other then me.
So now that its come down to this,
and all the dreams you had are all erased.
My view for you has forever changed.
Because i know now what the sick minded can do.
You see her remains on the floor,
and realize that your yelling at me.
Your hateful eyes quickly change,
see how fast you realize your mistakes.
You brake down your contender to act
in your favor.
You crawl to me, but i stagger back.
I know my body will be tempted to give in.
You coo to me ever so sweetly.
and it feels like a chocolate devil dipped sin.
"oh Destiney my Divinest Flower,
how could i be ever such a fool?
Blaming you for my cowardliness
I wish i could do better then complain.
You know me, you want me and your
eyes show me that you'll never forget."
You reach your hand to my own.
Like your efforts to contain me
will fill the void.
Your soften eyes,
flash to hate.
As get up and try to run away.
You know that I'll never
change my mind.
You chase me to the edge of sanity.
My feet hang off the edge of the delicate
wooden chair.
You burn to gray,
how could your work be all for nothing?
Could you truly suffer lonely?
Letting me escape that easy
committing suicide,
"just to get away from me?"
you whispered out loud,
Having me by your side
loving oh so blindly.
You didn't understand why.
Why waste your time on something
as cruel as me.
"Wait Destiney! NO!"
you yell as I'm to close to the edge.
There's no backing out now
I no longer taste fear
a tear streaks my face.
I have nothing left
What more can i say as i take my last breath
"i still love you"
I whispered to soft for you to hear
living in fear
of what you might think.
 A t e l i c E n i g m a · Tue Aug 18, 2009 @ 01:50am · 0 Comments |
