Okay, I know it's been a while since I have put in a new journal entry. I'm sorry for that but when your dealing with so much s**t at home, you don't really get enough time to do a lot of things in your spare time. (especially when you have a 73-74 year old grandfather who has been diagnoised(sp) with Demensha(sp) and is losing his mind everyday but the hour on the hour, so we think.) it's get's harder and harder each day when something like that has been happening to you for 7-8 years of living in a house with to elderly people, one who doesn't care, and the other with losing their mind, and two people, who didn't want to be there in the first place but it's all because of a father that did something really bad and you are very tempted into killing someone because you can't handle the stress.
However, most of this has been resolved because one of the other two has found someone that can help her with what's happening around her, and they can help her get through her day while they are on leave from their bases and what not because of them being in the Navy, sure it's hard for the two to be apart, but they are handling it with as much will as they can muster every single day.
But, it's still hard. And it will always be hard until you find a way to make it easier.
I know that this looks like a rant and it partcially is. But it's also the truth of what I've been going through for the past several years. But I have my ways of getting through it all. And if you have a similar situation, just continue doing what you're doing, but don't kill yourself because you can't handle the stress, that's not the way to deal with things. You may not see it, but you have a life ahead of you, you just need to figure out what you're going to do with that life and how you want to lead it, no matter what kind of obstacales come your way.
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