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This time I feel hard broken.
It's not over between us. I'm just making a too big deal again.
But I think it is so unfair. I wanted to go there with you so long. And you always say Yes, sounds fun. But we never went to a funpark. Now she asks you and your gone before I know. Without me. My heart feels raped. Left alone. I'm so stupid to fall in love with you. To give my heart away. Your using it, breaking it. It hurts so mutch, I barly belive in love and yet you have proven to me that it is worthless. Worthless, usless, nothing more nothing less. I wish that I could say that I don't need it. But the point is, I need you. I have created that stupid feeling of needing some-one once again. And it is good for nothing. I was happier without it. Only my friends. I don't need a special person in my life. I had one, he died. I chosed to live the rest of my life in sadness, to remember him and let him stay by me. I'm confushed I told you so many times, but you never seem to understand what I mean.
I need rest and peace, time for my own. A short life without you. You can do whatever your heart want to. I barly care. I cry for sure when you would leave me. But i wouldn't kill me. Too bad not.